any quote here///
And this is my beautiful life
The only thing certain is everything changes
The lows and the highs
And all those goodbyes
As hard as it gets I know it's still amazing
To be alive
It's a beautiful life

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Thursday, March 27, 2008

I'm bored.

Ok. I just got a call from Hidayah from Dramatec. She told me that there's Dramatec tomorrow. Erks..i dont want to join that cca anymore. I've skipped it like truckloads of times. I didn't tell them the truth. I just expected them to realize it themselves. I know it is so irresponsible of me not telling or informing them earlier. I've always wanted to tell Hidayah during Understanding Theatre,but i'm too scared. I dont know why. So now, I'm confused. Should i go or should i not go???

Most of us, the new comers, have been skipping Drama lately. I think if you have the passion, you would stay no matter how boring it is. I dont want to compare, but it's just that, with Nira, i feel like i belong there. I could be myself and be open. We talked to each other. We laughed together. Eventhough i get mad when only few people turn up for training, i love my Nira girls. But when i'm in Dramatec, i feel left out. You know the feeling like people looking at you like you're some kind of a freak? I feel like i'm the nerd or something in there. I dont know if there's got to do with different races. I dont know. I cant clique with races other than malay. I can befriend them,i dont mind, but i just can't clique with them. Even with my backrow amplifiers. I feel like everything i say or do is somehow wrong. I'll always think that they think i'm lame and boring. I dont know la. That's just how i feel.

So, i've discussed with Aisyah. We've decided that we will go tomorrow and tell them that we're quitting. End of story.

# posted by mira at 9:12 PM